I think life is constantly reminding me that it isn't fair. It's hard to say the last time I was happy with life for an extended period of time. It seems as though I just recently let go of cancer, I came to full terms with it and accepted that it did happen to me. I learned from it. It changed my life and I was grateful for those changes.
A few months go by and I am happy, but apparently, life wants to kick me down yet again and remind me that its not all puppies and roses. I'm such an optimist that sometimes I forget how crappy it is out there.
Now, I can't say anything for sure on the matter, but it seems as though [someone very close to me] may have the same thing I had last year. It COULD BE NOTHING, but you should always 'expect the best, prepare for the worst'.
So what if it IS Hodgkin's? well, shits gonna hit the fan for awhile, but I will be there for him, along every step. He will get through it, and hopefully a little better off than I.
But what if it isn't? Thank goodness. I would see this scare as a reminder not to get caught up in the world and to remember who it is I am, as well as why I am here.
For now, I play the waiting game until I hear what is really going on. I am keeping my fingers crossed and hoping for the best.
Just remember, cancer doesn't discriminate. I hope you never have to go through it, but tomorrow it could be you or a loved one. SO PLEASE, live a life full of love and happiness to the best of your ability. We aren't here for long, don't waste the little time you do have.